Sometimes the level of insignificance I feel is staggering.
Like it wouldn’t matter if I drove my car
Straight through this red light into the ocean
Instead of south on PCH.
I dream of it often.
Instead, I turn left, like I’m supposed to.
Like I’m always supposed to.
And just drive really fast.
As fast as I can without hurting someone else.
Driving really fucking fast makes me feel better.
I get an inch closer to knowing death.
It’s nights like these
I’m glad a drive a manual.
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December 7, 2018 at 12:55 am
Right there with you. Especially this time of year. I feel alone and like no one cares. Most people “don’t have time” for a phone call. I am tired of texting and emails. I want a conversation, in person is preferred, but over the phone will do. Most people don’t even send Christmas cards anymore. I’d love to have a pen pal like my 4th grade self.
Keep your chin up. We’ll get through the sludge together. 🙂
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December 7, 2018 at 3:17 am
Thank you for writing and connecting. Even if through the computer. We all feel loneliness at times. Hugs are the best. Find someone to hug. My kitty has saved my life more than once. Sending YOU a hug. 🙂
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December 7, 2018 at 2:12 pm
You are not insignificant to me! I don’t comment as much as I do think how much I love getting writings from you. I think often how much I miss the real mind, body, heart connection you created in my workouts. And please trust that my new workouts are insignificant without your significance! Love and hugs, J
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December 7, 2018 at 5:32 pm
Thank you dear. I so appreciate this note. I miss you and I love you.
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December 9, 2018 at 4:33 am
Hello Jennifer,
Just wanted you to know that you have been very significant in my life. When you reached out to me at such a low point in my life health wise, I was extremely touch. You are so successful and accomplished, but you found time to extend your hand to pull me up. You help bring me from not being able to walk or stand , to being able to do both. Likewise, your videos have help me lose a lot of the medication weight. My doctors were so amazed by my progress last month, I was able to get off a lot of medications. You have been such a blessing to my life. Through your help and act of kindness, I was able to go out to lunch with friends for the first time in two years. You have such a great legacy and body of work. You are healing people through your craft. When you start to feel insignificant, please think of me and all the others lives you changing.
Belinda💚
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December 9, 2018 at 5:59 pm
Wow. Thank you so much for sharing this Belinda. Words can’t tell you how much this means to me. I am touched and honored to be a part of your journey.
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